Rough Day

I was in the midst of a super long post where I just let it flow. Because this is a very rough day.

Halfway through I just got this thought so I am going to say this instead

Fuckmeidontknowwhatthefucktodowithmyself

I am hurt. I am numb. I understand. I am disappointed. I am restless. I am lost. I care. I can handle this. I can’t handle this.

Today… this is a very new experience for me. I have always had my way. I write or I cry or whatever, I got a way. Today I DON’T know what to do. I am okay but I am not. I am numb but I am overwhelmed. Wtf is this feeling? More importantly, wtf do I do??? Like right now. I know everything is going to be okay and all but WHAT.THE.FUCK.DO.I.DO.RIGHT.NOW?