Girl Friends Sunshine

Girls just wanna have fun! I am having the best time. I’ve been spending every free minute hanging out with my European girl friend who is town visiting. I love her to bits. She is travelling with another friend who is equally lovely so we’ve been having girly times.

We understand each other very well, even where we differ. We met while traveling 2 years ago with another girl, and 3 of us have been like sisters ever since. We can sit around doing nothing and still have an awesome time. I don’t really have a girlfriend circle here, so it’s really awesome when these girls are around. And girl time is EXACTLY what I need now. I’m happy it’s with one of the best girls in the world 🙂

She’s been updated about the Rai situation, understands completely how tough it is. She insists I visit him in a couple of months. Even if its for a few days, she says, I have to just talk to him in person.

We exchanged stories of boys and adventures and changes in life. It feels very surreal because we travelled for 3 months, and then met again for a little trip, but always some place foreign to both of us. For her to finally be on my home turf… strange!

It was also kinda cool that we bumped into 3 people who had starring roles in some of the stories I’d told her.

 

One tale was about ikissedaboy. Her jaw dropped. She got mad. And she declared him an asshole.

While we were having drinks, he happened to walk by. We said hello, he kissed me on the cheek, I introduced him to the girls and they spoke in their common lingo. The girls were smiley and I guess happy to be meeting some of my friends. When he went away, I whispered that he was ikissedaboy from the tale. And they got so mad for me. Haha. It was cute. It’s great to have girlfriends for things like this, they really got your back and will get mad at assholes for you.

When we were leaving, we had to talk to him briefly again and the girls were kinda snappy and unfriendly this time. It made me laugh. He looked a little uncomfortable as we left   🙂

We hung out somemore and some random things happened to make fun travel stories. I bought them a dinner spread with a variety of local flavours, they bought my beer, we had cocktails and talked and laughed. Great times. And tomorrow is her birthday so we are going to go big. I have bought all sorts of ridiculous knick knacks that she will have to wear when we go out and we are going to create chaos and have SO much fun :)))

 

P.S. I did have a recent chat with Rai and he looks hotter than ever. Still with a lot on his mind, but he made me smile

 

The Universe Mocks / Friends with Benefits-ish

I called a close friend to tell her what’s been happening and also what happened last night when I forced myself to go out and have some fun to take my mind of things. At the tale of last night, she was laughing so hard and said “I’m sorry I know it’s sad but it’s also incredibly funny. No one could have planned this. It’s a masterpiece!”

What happened? Here.

Rai hasn’t been in touch. It’s only 4 days but it feels like a very long time. Emotions and state of mind seems to change rapidly these days, with each day feeling so very very long since the first bad news. I am still deliberating what happens from here.

I joined a friend for a night out. Only there was this guy there, a guy I’ve met before who I find very attractive, who was also very interested in what I had to say the night we first met. It was more talk about career and ambition and still he was so engaged. I like starting on that foot rather than sexytalk.

Last night, the group were hanging out drinking outside casually rather than in a club. We ended up spending most of the night side by side with no lack of conversation. He put his arm around me, I had my legs swung over his when we were seated. The signals were all that there that we were getting along, that there was an attraction.

Also I have a tendency to do nice things — I am better at being the caring girl than the bitchy hotstuff girl men seem to like to chase. He said at one point “wow you are really taking care of me tonight”. Could be good, could be not.

“I don’t know if he was telling me to get it off his chest before anything more happened.”

I had a little breakdown at one point on my own and my friend came to talk it through with me and this fella was pulled off to a club in that time. I went to join him later when I felt better. I flirted with him through a little dance.

To be honest, I had every intention of having fun with a guy… if I felt ready when the moment hit. I was quite relieved to find this guy there because he’s actually nice and we genuinely get along. So here’s someone I can have fun with and also spend time in the daylight with. So I was happy to go slow, without pulling out all the sexy cards. We were talking and flirting slow. So this was the upgame now. The sexier moves and the next stage was coming. So there I was dancing, just for him,

He leaned over and said…

He’d kissed a guy earlier in the night.

WTF!

Edit: I’ve cut out the emotional blabbering and leaving you with this shorter version. 

I was incredibly frustrated and sure that the universe was mocking me. Even my attempt to distract myself had flipflopped SO badly. Who coulda seen that coming??  I pushed him away and had a giant breakdown. Easily the worst of my life. It was pretty public too. Sigh.

I didn’t listen to anything else he said. But I apologized the next morning for getting mad + a brief explanation.

Still toying with the idea of a friends-with-benefits proposal. I get the feeling he isn’t very comfortable with what he did that night so there’s a chance but I don’t know how good an idea this is. I liked it because it was going smoothly. Now it’s obviously not. Drop it or drop the idea completely of finding a fella-for-fun?