I’ve met a man I really like. We’re super duper compatible. We like enough of the same things and have enough differences, to make us rather interested in each other. I can see how we can learn and improve from each other. We make each other laugh a lot. We had bumps due to boy vs girl typical way of doing things. But the amazing thing is how well we cleared up every misunderstanding. How well it all works, is so amazing to me.
If I don’t see us working out, I won’t stay
Now I’m thinking back to the time my bestie said, ‘girl you are single because unlike the rest of us you know what you want and you know the makings of a good relationship. Its not a bad thing’. I thought she was kinda right. Now I know she was right. When I get lonely, I really really wish I had someone. I suppose when the chase is on I give people (read: idiots) too many chances. But when it comes down to the real thing, if I sense we don’t fit, I can’t stay. I get out quick. Because it feels unnatural. If the attraction + compatibility factor isn’t good, it feels false to stay with someone just for company. It is just impossible for me. I suppose it comes from being someone who values being genuine very very highly.
Having met this handsome fella, it all fits. Now there is a challenge. A big one. But in terms of feeling right, making sense, and seeing a potential future — this is what was missing from many dating attempts of the past. I’ve genuinely liked some guys I didn’t get. But 90%, the guys were just wrong for me. And the reality of that was either thrust upon me, or I simply knew it.
I’m not saying I’m pining all my hopes of the future on this guy. But when you like someone, you see yourselves together and it makes you smile. You’re not thinking about where it ends. You’re not thinking short term or long term. You are thinking I like you and I wanna be with you. That’s all there is to it really. And then you get together and move forward. There is no finite point you are looking toward. You are just moving forward together.
Compatibility & Maturity in Communicating
So him and I, we did AMAZING together. My friend stated dating a girl a week before I met this guy, and he was so smitten. Now he’s telling me about her dramatic tantrums. Already bump in the road. And even tho he has apologized, she’s not accepting. Difficult.
Him and I, we had bumps. Several. What amazes me is how well we dealt with it, from both ends.
For instance, we had those situations where boys and girls are affected by things in totally different ways, and deal with it in different ways. I huffed. He asked me to elaborate and I didn’t. He fell asleep. It annoyed me that he could just fall asleep.
But the next day, he put it aside to kiss me good morning. I was touched. I thought about things in the day and by evening, I’d recognized the wrong on my end and apologized. The Man wants to know WHY. So I said sorry that I got upset, but here’s why. He explained himself. He didn’t make stupid excuses. The valid excuses, I accepted. The rest, we put down to differences and accepted that. We joked, we kissed, we carried on.
In fact, we actually talked about all the instances that made me huff. I didn’t kick up a giant fuss any of those times, but still men prefer to hear whats wrong. If u go cold, they wont keep pressing u. But as a girl, that is what I do. I’m not gonna slap u on the head. I’m gonna go super quiet and u should know I’m mad. I realised thats the difference between mens way and womens way and that just how it is.
We talked about the why and all that, and afterward it was cool. Not that all problems solved. No pacifying. But we dealt with it and moved on.
To me I think all these are very good signs of our compatibility. Of course ideally u dont argue at all. BUt we were sharing a small space. So I think we did pretty great in all.
The fact that I was invited to share that space, his space is a big deal. Even when i offered to vacate so he could have his space again for a bit, he said no and wanted me there. But he isn’t clingy. That’s good.
If I had a checklist, this man scored so well on that list.
- He’s not vain
- He’s not materialistic. But he is ambitious.
- He’s healthy, not on a fad-diet. Into fitness.
- He’s not into the stick thin girls
- He likes big dogs and laughed at tiny purse dogs that girls and young couples seem to like these days. No offence to anyone who likes that. But for me, I don’t want that kind of pet. I always said I’d like a ‘man dog’. Meaning one of those big ones. Tough ones. He said that’s what he liked. And I hugged him because that couldnt have been more perfect an answer if I’d planned one
- He kissed me under the stars
- He didn’t rush the sex
- He laughs a very deep laugh. And sometimes when I make a good joke, he laughs so hard and he looks at me with this lingering full-on eye contact, that I feel so fully loved and appreciated and understood in that moment
- He kissed me good morning even when there was tension in the air
- He pats my bum affectionately 🙂
- He thought of me at his dinner and brought back ice cream for both of us to have together
- We attended a party together. He gave me just the right amount of space to hang with my friends. He talked to people. He always refilled my cup/plate.
- He didn’t MAKE me pay for anything
- When I sprung for a couple’s massage, he was so impressed that a girl was treating him, he leaned over and kissed me
- He says thank you. Anytime it would be nice to hear a thank you, he has said it
- He has a sexy man beard
- He makes me laugh and I make him laugh
So in terms of how good the time we had together, I’m raving about it.
The question of what happens now,
though, is still open. It seems promising but still a little vague. “nice to meet you” as a parting phrase was kinda weird. And he said “maybe” as an answer to, will i see u again? And he didnt want to get skype.
At the same time, he did react like I was crazy for thinking he wouldn’t write me when he went back home to Australia. OF COURSE, he said. And his texts from the airport were all still very cosy/normal after he’d left. And he’ll be back in 3 weeks.
I did also get a chance to say, I don’t want to be anyone’s exotic conquest, and he said of course not. And he said he was on Tinder (where we met) not for sex although that would be a nice benefit to come with meeting a nice girl.
I am a bit nervous I think. I want to play it cool, but I want to ask for what I want. If I act like i dont care, he prob wouldnt develop the rship. Can a girl ask? I know I don’t want to date other pple right now. I can’t really stand the idea of him dating pple back home, although it wouldnt be wrong since we didnt commit to anything.
I would like to commit though. To something. I want to be an us. How do I do that?