Thursday night
Texted Vday Guy finally after much radiosilence. A few back and forths. But no invite. And he told me it was his last free-to-roam day as work was getting everyone back to live-in status and he may not be able to go out at all.
So he’d been in the same country and we didn’t even meet. After I spent 3 weeks excited to seem him again. Comprised of 1 week on cloud 9 where I started a fitness routine, and 2 weeks of over-thinking the gaps in communication. And 1 weekend of spending a big chunk of my paycheck on refreshing my wardrobe and buying lingerie to dazzle him when we met up.
Disappointment in the bucketloads. And when I asked him to call me, he didn’t. I was so upset. Clearly I had pinned more hopes on this than I realised. But I can’t help it, I really like this guy AND we’re incredibly compatible. So I call my girlfriend and get it off my chest how bloody awful I feel and how much I don’t look forward to getting back in the field. Bad dates suck.
Friday I am totally in a funk. I am disappointed that when I get emotional, I don’t function too well at work. So much for strong independent woman. My emotions are ruling me. I can’t find anything to do to distract myself. I decide to go out for drinks.
Friday Night The night started out GREAT. Met 2 lovely girls and later my friend joined us, and it was just a great night making new friends. Unfortunately I got targetted by someone who befriended us all, with the plan solely to steal from us. She stole my handbag and my friend’s. She disappeared, but I found her. It became clear she had purposely stolen it. She almost punched me.
Night ended with cops investigation the whole thing and letting her go. I knew once she was gone, so were our bags. Maybe they’d have proof she was guilty. But if she took all my stuff… Still a nightmare.
Penniless, I slept at my friends house.
Saturday afternoon The parents picked me up and the waves of disappointment from them drenched me. It’s hard to show your remorse, while trying to find some positivity in order to fight the anxiety that’s threatening to eat you whole. That was the longest and hardest day ever, not know what the hell to do with your time. Too painful for any distraction to work.
Sunday morning
This weekend is the worst. I went out to have fun to get over the Vday Guy disappoinment and ended up worsening all problems!
Oddly, I feel the need to lean on him. I decide this might be a good risk to take, to appeal to his manly senses to take care of me. Plus the parents are really tough cookies. I need someone to help me feel better and wrap my mind around it. I text. He calls. We talk and I feel better.
I go to church. I pray hard. In the middle of mass, I never usually answer phonecalls but I did this one. A restaurant called to say they’d found my bag dumped next to their bin. Miracle.
Sunday afernoon
I collect my bag and have everything important in it. She’s taken my cash and my ipod. And a credit card which I’ve blocked. All the personal things are fine. But my friend’s bag is still missing. I hunt down dirty alleys but no success. I feel terrible for her but I can’t help much more. I am totally surprised and glad to have my bag back.
Sunday evening. After making reparations with my parents and chilling a bit, I decide to accept Vday Guy’s suggestion we meet up this evening. He has a few hours each day to go out but hasn’t done so far. I told him I wasn’t sure about today but tomorrow is good.
He calls in the evening to ask me again. Nice. I accept and get dressed. This day is feel AMAZING. A total flip. Crazy in itself.
I’m late and he waits patiently.
He looks very happy to see me. We give big hugs and he kisses me on the cheek. I loved that. We have a lovely dinner, talking alot about Friday night and about work. I like that he shares all that with me. He goes much more into details these days and I think people alwaysappreciate the person who is close enough to listen to their boring work stuff. I’m interested tho. And he takes an interest in mine. And we encourage and advice each other.
Soon as we leave the restaurant, he pulls me in for a hug. We go for a tiny walk because his pick-up arrives soon. He has his hands on my waist, we never stop talking, we make jokes, we pass a sports store and he talks about his gymstuff which he is crazy crazy passionate about. We stand around, we joke, we cuddle, we kiss. He makes sure it’s okay in my Asian culture that we are hugging in public. Cute.
His fingers are stroking my back as we talk.
It’s time to go. I declare that we are meeting tomorrow. He’s surprised I would want to make the long journey out to meet him again as he can’t wander far from base. He reminds me its crunch time at work. But he will try and he will update me if he can escape tomorrow. He wants to but he’s serious about work.
Just before we part, we stand and talk with our arms around each other in a full-on eye-gazing sesh.
The big moment
I man up. I say, I have a question. He doesn’t flinch. With his handsome eyes locked on mine, and a tiny smile on his lips, he encourages me to ask. I say,
I feel we’re on to something wonderful here. What do you think?
He smiles. He says, I feel the same. But I am also practical and we live in different countries.
Right answer. And I was expecting that but.
I tell him I’ve been thinking about it. And I bring up the topic of travel. But his ride is honking at him for the 3rd time. He swears at the guy but has to go. He apologizes and said, write me. Write me what you think. And I firmly say, no email. You call me. Or we meet tomorrow.
He says okay. We kiss goodbye with a smile.
He texts later to say he appreciates that I came all the way to meet him. He’s sorry he had to leave at such an important time, but we will pick up the conversation.
It sounds terribly promising. I definitely hope for the best. But in any case, a well-communicated resolve is much easier to stomach than being left hanging.
To recap, HE FEELS THE SAME!
YAY :)))))
Sunday evening
Come home to find some friends hanging out with my brother. We hug and we talk and make plans.
Great end to the weekend. Happy girl right now.